You don't know this new me; I put back my pieces differently. They say a lot can change in a year. That's putting it mildly in my case. My world has been completely rocked. These major life events have taught me so much about myself and life in general. I feel like some days I … Continue reading Putting the pieces back… →

"When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous trip to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. It’s all very exciting. After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and … Continue reading Beginning to enjoy Holland →

I did everything but grieve in a healthy way. I canceled therapy appointments because I didn't want to tell her what happened and ignored this whole grieving process. I acted like I was fine. I kept my dad's cell phone near at all times. I would sit in my car after dropping my daughter off … Continue reading Learning to grieve… →

I was going to therapy, taking the steps I needed to be the best version of me, be there not just physically did my daughter but mentally as well. During this time my father started to deteriorate fast. I would check in with him daily, worry about him constantly, and try to be as much … Continue reading One step forward, two steps back →

For the sake of privacy I will not be sharing my daughters name but I will be using her initials. On the coldest day of the year after an extremely long my labor, EJ was born. Shit got real, fast. I was exhausted and terrified and trying to juggle the anxiety of being a new … Continue reading My whole life changed →