I know this could really annoy a lot of people but just hear me out. This has been on my mind so much lately that I had to write some of this out to help me process.
I hear a lot (and especially with all the Rachel Hollis craze lately) about making your dreams come true and you have to start today or else and so on and so on.
One of my biggest dreams has been to do something like go to the Oscars for makeup artistry. That would be amazing I think to myself all of the time. Society loves to put us on a timeline though. You should be graduated by this age, married by that age, and kids by this time all while building a career for yourself and flipping a house while you’re at it.
It’s been pretty textbook for me. I went to school, met my husband, got married, had a child, and have worked on my career along the way. I’m not going to lie though, when I was pregnant with my daughter, there were tons where I thought, is this it? Do I just push all these other passions aside now and accept the enormous blessing of being a mom? The answer is no.
It’s called “I’m in a season right now” and this season of life is filled with sleepless nights, changing diapers, and kissing owies, but it’s also filled with a little more clarity and even more drive to work towards my other passions even more.
There is a difference in becoming complacent and being present/accepting the season you are in. This is not my season to go to the oscars and the next one might not be either. If I died tomorrow and didn’t have this crazy accomplishment, then what? I think I’ll be just fine.
I truly believe we all have a great calling, but what if your calling is to be a lunch lady? What if you are supposed to impact the lives of elementary children in a huge way? What if your great calling is to manage a grocery store? What if you were meant to be a cab driver? What if I’m meant to be at the oscars one day? What if I’m meant to be a stay at home mom?! Why does a calling have to be this crazy big thing (in society’s eyes)? I feel like these are all big things.
This is definitely something I have been struggling with a lot lately. I’m not saying I’ve given up on other dreams of mine but I am saying that it’s OK if everything does not happen when and how I would like it to go because I don’t hold tomorrow.
I guess what I’m trying to say is we don’t have to have everything figured out today or tomorrow and you don’t have to stay up until 2am tonight mapping out your future. Honestly a good nights sleep would probably be better for you at this point. It’s also ok that you thought by now you would be on broadway and married to the man of your dreams. Trust me, God knows your heart’s desires. That doesent mean to just give up and not work towards anything. That is definitely not what I mean. It just means that if you were planning on going right and now you have to go left that it’s ok to take a little longer of a drive, stop at a random cafe along the way, make friends with a few strangers, and then get to where you were headed, or maybe you start heading somewhere entirely different because until now you never realized that this road may have something for you as well.
Like I said, I’m certainly still processing all of this and clearly cannot fully articulate everything spinning around in my head but it’s a start….