You don’t know this new me; I put back my pieces differently.
They say a lot can change in a year. That’s putting it mildly in my case. My world has been completely rocked.
These major life events have taught me so much about myself and life in general. I feel like some days I don’t even know myself anymore and that’s ok. That’s not always a bad thing. I’m really proud of myself. I’ve pushed myself outside of my comfort zone and it took some major changes to do that. Having a child changed my whole outlook on life and I’m a better person for it. My daughter is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Although the transition to motherhood was not the smoothest; I am a better person because that precious little girl made me a mom.
Losing my father gave me the ability to empathize and understand pain on a completely different level. I just look at situations in a completely different way now, but how could you not?
I truly feel like you can let situations completely break you or completely shape you. The shaping isn’t always going to be easy though. The molding process is tough, it can be tiring.
You pick up the pieces and start to realize that they don’t fit exactly like they did before. You have to completely reengineer. In this process you start to realize so much about yourself.
I’m realizing in this process that I’m so glad some of those pieces aren’t fitting in the places they used to. I’m being challenged, forced to think differently, look at things from different perspectives, and understand that there won’t ever be a finished product necessarily. But for now I’m going to keep taking the pieces one by one and trying to find a place for them.
This season has brought an immense amount of growth. Thank God for seasons. The tough ones and the prosperous ones. This season is preparing me for big things…
PC: Whitney Wiatt Photographer