The best Dads get promoted to grandfathers 

I worried about my father constantly. I would check in on him all the time. Try to keep the conversation light. Update him on life. I tried to connect with him any possible chance I would get just to make sure he was ok. I loved talking to my dad. He was so funny, incredibly smart, and we had a lot in common. I was a total daddy’s girl when I was little, but now I felt like I was essentially taking the role as parent. I felt like I was the only one he had and the only one who cared. 
That is a lot of pressure to put on yourself. I literally felt like if I didn’t make sure he was ok then we would be right back to what happened years ago. This was an enormous source of anxiety in my life. I felt responsible for my fathers wellbeing and it was exhausting. 
I found out I was pregnant with my daughter in the spring of 2016 after having a miscarriage. I had a lot of my own anxiety and had to focus on trying to have the healthiest pregnancy possible. There were weeks when I just could not handle the responsibilities of worrying about my father on top of trying to keep it together for me child I was carrying.
I know my father was excited when my daughter was born. This was his first grandchild. I truly felt like this had brought hope to my father. Like he had this new purpose as a grandfather…

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